I hit a rough patch recently, I don't know why I was just so sad. Missing Grace so much. I need to greive her but I also need to be together for the children I do have at home. Something that got me through the very begining (besides shock I guess!) was I forced myself to focus on the wonderful times I had with Grace. Like to think about and be thankful for the amazing snuggles she gave me, or for the smiles I had from her, or from the times when she made it obvious that she wanted ME! To focus on that instead of everything I will never have with her, did help me. I think I got out of the habit of that, and just thought of everything I didn't have with her. So, in an effort to keep myself on track and count my blessings I am going to try to write each day about somehting that I am thankful for. I do truly have alot to be thankful for. I don't have my beautiful girl, but I am not left with nothing.
Today I am thankful for living in a wonderful neighborhood with great neighbors. I feel safe in my neighborhood and didn't worry about what kinds of people were passing out candy to my 3 sons and nephew last night. I love the company of another neighbor while walking. After Grace died, my neighbors all brought us food and have prayed for us and supported us at Grace's memorial. I am very thankful for living where we do.