Ive tried to come back here and write, to write about Grace's funeral or other things about her or write about my feelings, my brokeness. Each time I try, I cannot. I'm not sure why but I cannot bring myself to write on this blog or publish the few posts I have attempted..I do not know why. I know I still have alot of pageviews so, I wanted to say, I am surviving. Barely but I am. I have 3 sons so to not is not an option. Inside I am just broken. There is no other way for me to describe how I feel. Maybe it's just too painful. Maybe this post will help to bring me around to writing again. I don't know.
I would give anything, in a heartbeat to have the most beautiful girl in the world back in my arms. I wanted to bring her home so badly, but if it meant having her alilve, I'd drive to U of M every day for the rest of my life.
Please don't stop thinking of my absolutely amazing daughter. She may not have survived CDH and PPHN but she was an amazing fighter.